For those of you whom know anyone who has dealt with this...I need some help. I'm feeling relieved that it actually happened and that charges were dropped against our family, etc. however, I have constant feelings of guilt, a hole in my heart, and general feelings of being abnormal. On the outside, if you saw me, I'm a person that many people THINK am always upbeat and seem to "have it all". In reality, it's far from true. I'd give anything to have a normal kind of happiness that I see so many other people around me experiencing day to day. I want to escape my life but of course I can't. I'm truly grateful for what I do have that others don't, however it seems to have come at a great price. I don't know how to get it out of my mind sometimes and quiet the sad thoughts. People who trult bother to take a long look at me have noticed my sadness. It disturbs me because I've tried top create a facade for so long and thought I was doing a good job of hiding it. My daughter is a broken person. I'd give anything for her to get over her sadness and self-destruction even more. It only contributes to mine.