Well, today is the day I took the plunge and decided to sign up as a member of this format. I've been on this site multiple times, over many many months and all of you have uplifted me with comfort and strength at moments when I was particularly vulnerable. Last night was another one of those times. Then this morning I realized I actually needed to interact, potentially being able to give comfort to others with similar circumstances as mine. More of my story will come soon, when I'm able to dedicate enough time to writing it out. Right now I'd like to urge others who, like myself, have simply read as "guests" to also start to share. Just signing up today has given me a feeling of empowerment and it's eased my overwhelming feelings of being so alone. I'm empty, feeling everything good has been sucked out of my life. I've been emotionally unable and unwilling to work on myself. I'm stuck in an endless loop of going through the motions of life and reliving motherhood and what I might have been done differently over and over and over. How do I enjoy a sunny day, my son is homeless, Which friend wants to spend time with me, my son is homeless. How do I give my daughter the normal mom she deserves, my son is homeless. Why brush my teeth, my son is homeless. The frustrations, fear and guilt are enormous, draining and NEVER go away. I know with all my heart that I'm powerless over my son's life, but true love is unconditional and, as you of all know, can and does sometimes hurt like hell. I'm hoping this step may change some of that. I feel all your pain, thank you for your stories. God bless you all.