I'm finding it harder & harder to leave my home. More than the physical issues it's become emotional. Saying that, my therapist along with the grief group I attend are pushing me to get out of my home. Especially during all this construction. You know if I leave the house will fall down, don't you? therapist is encouraging me to check in here daily - he knows what a great group of parents & what a support you have all been to me. I mentioned to therapist the CD gathering that is happening someplace in Ohio (Cleveland, right?) & he wants me to move mountains to get there. Ladies, I'm going to be honest here....my dad's surprise party 2 weeks ago terrified me. I didn't want to be there - face all those people (80 strong), most of them family. A few of my aunts & a couple of my cousins started crying when they saw me - they were shocked at the change in my physical condition even though my dad had shared with them my issues. Some were not aware of husband's death or even wm not living here. I left the party early & went back to dad's house. I get to the CD gathering I can't leave early. Just can't happen. I feel isolated, alone. I need encouragement.