Hi everyone ! It has been quite awhile since I posted but I check the site frequently and I have certainly been following our good friend Step and her journey to Mommyhood. I don't even know where to begin ... In June I took difficult child off his medications. He was ticking horribly and it just didn't seem to ever help him academically. I thought we would give him a break over the summer and when September came we decided to see "how it goes" without medications. We met with difficult child's school counselor who acts as a liason with difficult child's team of teachers a week or so ago. We called the meeting and made clear all of the issues difficult child has and what his needs are. She was kind, sympathtic and agreed to revise his 504 and work with us anyway she could. At that time she said all his teachers were in unison that difficult child was nice, well behaved, asked for help when needed but off focus and has to be redirected occasionally. Today his counselor called to follow up and is meeting with school pysch to do 504 revisions. She said she met with difficult child's team of teachers after our meeting and told them how hard husband and I work as parents and that difficult child's prior school told them what great, supportive parents we are blah, blah, blah. She then went on the say now that difficult child's teachers are really noticing how unfocused and off task he is and that constant redirection is necessary. She is aware difficult child was not on medication due to prior meeting and tactfully began to discuss considering us putting difficult child back on his medications. I have to tell you that for years now I have lost so much sleep over wondering if medications were the right thing to do for him. If they were in anyway harming him, etc. He has done the "medication go round" since he was 8 years old and NOTHING has made any significant difference. He has had numerous tests, therapies, etc ... I just feel so lost and sad and worried... I was at work when she called and after we hung up, I went into the bathroom and cried for 10 minutes straight. I just hate all this and feel so bad for difficult child ... Any advice ?