At my mother's urging I am seeing a new psychiatrist. He is my stepdad's psychiatrist. My stepdad is also bipolor all though he is far worse off than me, in my opinion. He's on permanent disabity for his illness. My mom swears up and down that this is the best psychiatrist he has ever had. So I am giving him a try. My bipolar has been pretty stable for the last year, but now it's my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) that has been giving me major problems. For the last couple of years I have been having recurring night time thoughts of sleepwalking and harming my children. I heard of a couple of stories on Dateline of people murdering family members in their sleep and I've been having night mares ever since. So I'm obsessing about harming my kids and I freak out every night before going to sleep. I know it sounds silly, because I love my children more than life itself and would never dream of hurting them while I'm awake. Still, it's a feeling I just can't shake. My old psychiatrist tried me out on every antidepressant in the book to no avail. At our last meeting he told me he has run out of his bag of tricks to help me stabilize. So maybe another psychiatrist will finally be able to help me. My appointment isn't until the 18th. I am counting down the days. My Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) has me miserable and I can't concentrate on anything. Wish me luck.