Anyone get tempted to go on Self Destruct when things are falling apart? This might apply to the PE forum more because with no kids at home there's really no reason to hold back on "TAWANA!" I mean, do you ever just think, "What the heck? That person who took advantage of my good nature is paying for eternity for abusing my help even if it makes me look like a big meany." "I'm ticked and I'm going to go on a bender for a week." "I want to smoke and I'm going to buy a pack and smoke them all tonight." It's the wanting to smoke that scares me most. I loved smoking and the only reason I was able to quit was that I got a blood clot on my lung and I couldn't breathe let alone go to the store for smokes for two months. Right now, I don't care much. I'm feeling super selfish. Unfortunately the selfish things are all self-destructive, and I've been holding back on acting out because I worry what people will think. Right now, I don't give a rat's rear end what people think. So, what do you gals do? How long do you ride the pity wagon? When is it getting you down and when is giving in and buying that pack of smokes saving your sanity?