I debated on sharing this. I think someone may need to hear it ~ I have spent the last four yrs in a depressing cloud. As I just shared in another thread I had to seek prof. help with my depression. I have hung on by a thread as my difficult child broke my heart over and over and over... I want to share that today I shared his picture with a customer. She asked me where he was? college, service,where? I said he is going down the wrong path. She looked shocked, then very sweetly replied oh honey he will come back. I said I know in his own time. I didn't cry. I didn't start shaking. I was fine. For those of you that are in the place I was in, I want to give you hope that the detaching that everyone recommends does change you. I not too long ago replaced the pictures of difficult child on the walls. I could not look at all the crushed dreams, it was too much for me to see him when he was okay now that he is not. Each day I am a stronger person. I realize it took yrs for me to get to the place I was in and it will take a long time for me to recover, but I never thought I would make it where I am now. My difficult child has a ct date june 7. My husband, easy child and I are leaving for a vacation on june 3 and won't return till late on june 7 . We have not had a vacation in 4 yrs. I have not been able to function well enough with difficult child or to leave difficult child to go anywhere. There is hope...... Peace does come.... I will miss you all!