MWM, I think your choice to stick with-this therapist is a good one. I'm sorry you don't like her. But right now your daughter needs help processing and I'd focus on that. It's awesome that you found a good therapist for her, at least, one that she can open up to. That's an accomplishment. Pat yourself on the back.
Try to remind yourself that this is just a therapist. It's not someone you're going to marry. (Okay, maybe that's not a good comparison, LOL!
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I'd continue to look for a diff therapist for yourself, since you aren't happy with-your daughter's doctor or your own, in regard to their take on things or their skill level.
I'm wondering why your current therapist can't deal with-it, since, if you remove the logistics, it's really about anxiety and yearning and dread and love ... things that most therapists should be able to deal with. in my humble opinion.
It's great that your daughter has a wonderful bmom. I suspect that will smooth their mtng, if they ever have one. It is so hard to wonder if it will ever happen.
I wonder how much anger your daughter has that she was placed for adoption? Or how much insecurity? No matter how many times we tell our kids we love them, they can't seem to understand that they were not "given away." Well, at least, until they become parents and understand how hard it is.
One of the reasons we chose open adoption for our difficult child is that we know many adoptees who spent yrs searching, and really ruined their lives. We thought if we could at least take one component out of the equation, it would help our child, who would (probably, statistically) have issues no matter what.
One guy quit his job and searched full time for 4 yrs! When he finally met his bmom, he was disappointed. She wasn't the fantasy mom he had imagined. They didn't argue or anything ... it was just kind of blah.
I have a friend who searched for her bio daughter after 30 yrs of telling herself that she had no right to know. Other people talked her into it. Mostly, she just wanted to make sure her daughter was all right. Turned out that the bio daughter had placed a note in the file many yrs prior and had been waiting and waiting. The neat part was that my friend was able to meet the adoptive mom and they adored one another. But the adoptive mom was much older--in her 70s at that point--and she died a yr later. Had my friend waited any later to search, she would have never met the adoptive mom.
Mostly, my friend just wanted to tell the adoptive mom "Thank you" for being such a good mom to my daughter. She said if she could have chosen anyone in the world, it would have been this woman. She was so grateful.
I know that's what your daughter's bmom will say about you.
My difficult child's bmom dated a guy once who had no idea she had placed a child for adoption. She told us that he blurted out one day, "I think anyone who gives up their child for adoption is wrong and evil and I would never be friends with-anyone who ever did that."
I would have dropped him like a hot potato, but she must have been insecure, because she continued to date him for a cpl more mo's until she finally broke it off.
All this is to say, that no one can really know your heart or the bmom's heart and no one can judge.