I need someone’s advice. I feel so depressed and confused and I can’t afgord a therapist right now. I feel so bad I kicked my son out of the appointment. I am a single mom, my son is 18 and he started smoking weed when he was 13. I found out he was smoking a year ago. I was always working Unfortunately I was not able to be there with him all the time. He was arrested in December and is in probation. He works and he goes to school. Last monday he lied to me. He told me he would be working after class until the restaurant closes. He did not. I texted him and I couldn’t understand what he texted me. Something was not right. I called him he sounded like he was drunk or in drugs. I argued with him and ask him to come to get his staff. He has no place to go, but i feel if I let him stay here he will continue this behavior. I feel so bad. I dont know what to do. I don’t know if this is the right thing to do. He also told me he has tried xanax. I feel like I failed as a mother. Please help me. I feel so depressed i wish i can disappear from this world.