Well, Im back. It has been a while. Im needing help, as if you couldnt tell. lol. Anyway, I am gonna rant a while. I am just so done with-it all. The twinz are now teens. I cant stand difficult child 3. He is trying to break the apron strings, which is good. But its like he wants to go against everything I stand for. Real question, how do I stop the insanity? Example, he calls his sister fat. I tell him to stop and he keeps going and going and going. His mouth just wont quit! Do I send him to his room where he throws a fit? Before he takes his medications in the am, he is obnoxious and intolerable. His sister wishes he was dead. He talks negative all the time about everything. We have been through countless therapist. But if he doesnt want to change, what is the point? If he wont do the work its like throwing money out the window. I used to be such a good warrior mom, an advocate for my child. But he has turned on me but he loves me. He wants me right there, but go away. Hug me, dont touch me! I see what has happened, what I have let happen. I just cant get back in controll of myself or him. I have been running away from it all. I know that, I just cant deal with-this mess anymore and I dont know what to do about it. He has had medication changes so I need to update that part. He actually stopped taking some of the medications because he didnt want to take all of these "drugs". He did this while I was out of town. The sad thing is, I couldnt tell any difference from when he was on them and when he stopped! We went to psychiatrist and he said we would wait and see what happens. Fine, because they werent working in the first place and he kept dumping more medications on top of medications. Maybe I need to go to counseling, maybe we need to go as a family. I just dont have the answers anymore. This is not a nice place to be for any of us. Okay folks, send any advice you can think of, because I am just done.