Hello past friends and new people, I hope everyone is atleast o.k. I haven't been here for awhile. I think I recall telling you how sick my mother was with cancer. Well, she died the end of June. God, how I miss her!! Spouse (or whatever I should be calling him), left me and the boys (remember, one is special needs), a week or so after. He "claims" he isn't able to take the boys to his moms who has tons and tons and tons of available space in her home for sleepovers. This means, he is staying over here some nights. I guess this is the beginnings of the end. The end of 25 years. I still can't believe all that has happened. So many emotions. I am so afraid of the future (with no education, no job, MAJOR stress of the boys, their needs (esp. special needs child). I am just wiped out so to speak. I could just run away!