Bettyboo44
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I received news today from my son’s girlfriend that my son is in prison as of earlier today. He’s in there for domestic abuse against her, the mother to their child (their beautiful child who witnesses this ). It’s the third time in 14 months that he’s in prison for the same thing.
So many emotions have been whirling around in my head today, sadness of what he’s capable of, anger that he keeps doing this and dread of that call again ‘do you accept call from ….’ and what this call entails, “can I put money in for canteen just to make life bit more bearable for him in an already unbearable situation”- these are the words he’s used so many times before, as in how could I possibly not!!
He’s 26 and relies heavy on drink and has done since he was a teenager. I’ve lost count of how many times he’s been in trouble with the law, how many jobs he’s lost, and homes he’s been evicted from.
Previously I did visit him in prison, answered the calls and did put money in but I feel like I’m in shock or something, cannot believe this is happening again and so soon, 2 months after he was released. I don’t want to entertain this anymore or just don’t know if I’m capable of doing it over and over again….the unpredictability of those calls (which are ridiculously regular, gets a phone in his cell!), the expectancy for money every single week, the day round trip it takes just for one visit- not cheap either. He always says same thing, that if I don’t help him who will, and every time he’s released -whether it’s a short stint in the cells or longer stay in prison him and his partner/ ex (I can’t keep up!) end up back together
So many emotions have been whirling around in my head today, sadness of what he’s capable of, anger that he keeps doing this and dread of that call again ‘do you accept call from ….’ and what this call entails, “can I put money in for canteen just to make life bit more bearable for him in an already unbearable situation”- these are the words he’s used so many times before, as in how could I possibly not!!
He’s 26 and relies heavy on drink and has done since he was a teenager. I’ve lost count of how many times he’s been in trouble with the law, how many jobs he’s lost, and homes he’s been evicted from.
Previously I did visit him in prison, answered the calls and did put money in but I feel like I’m in shock or something, cannot believe this is happening again and so soon, 2 months after he was released. I don’t want to entertain this anymore or just don’t know if I’m capable of doing it over and over again….the unpredictability of those calls (which are ridiculously regular, gets a phone in his cell!), the expectancy for money every single week, the day round trip it takes just for one visit- not cheap either. He always says same thing, that if I don’t help him who will, and every time he’s released -whether it’s a short stint in the cells or longer stay in prison him and his partner/ ex (I can’t keep up!) end up back together