I'm sorry that I haven't been around to offer much support. It's not that I don't think about my wonderful board family often. I just didn't have anything to give. I actually broke. That's the best way to explain what happened. We went to visit easy child at college. On the second day there, easy child sits me down and says, "Now that things are getting better in your life, I think you are in a spot where you can actually handle what I have to tell you." .... not what a Mom wants to hear. While easy child was in High School, he had severe bully issues. Issues he could no longer deal with on his own and he refused to add any more to my plate because I already had 2 difficult children, a mother in law from heck, and a husband who at that time was still an active alcholic. So, easy child turned to drugs. He said he had a bad drug problem in High School. And part of the reason he picked a College so far away was to get away from the drugs and to get clean. He was able to with help through the college. I didn't break because easy child had a drug problem. The fact that he finished High School, got into College and is in his 4th year, it couldn't have been that bad of a problem. And he's clean now. What broke me was the fact that my kid didn't come to me because my life was too full of stress that he didn't want to add his to my plate. I've never felt like a failure as a parent no matter how bad the difficult child or mother in law crud got..... But I do feel like I failed easy child. It broke my heart. .... Actually, it shattered me. I'm slowly putting the pieces together. I don't know if I'll have a lot to offer anyone for a while. I'm still trying to find my footing in life...again. Oh and add to that, Ant is now trying out for difficult child King. Just when you think that life is going to settle down, it turns upside down again. Thanks for letting me share.