difficult child 1 broke my computer. I'm using husband's and he guards his computers carefully. I had a wonderful little cherub one week ago. She was 7 lbs 14 oz and 18 1/2 inches long. Labor was 2 1/2 hours. She let the dr get there and I got to have pain medications. difficult child 1 is in crisis. He threatened to kill difficult child 2. Has thrown things at difficult child 3 and had a meltdown that scared Elsie so badly she talked about it weeks afterwards. difficult child 1 doesn't respond to me anymore. It used to be that he would at least try to hide the aggression from me. Now it doesn't matter if I'n there or not. He does respond to men. My crisis plan is to call the neighbors and if they aren't there the crisis team from the county mental health. As soon as I call difficult child 1 calms down. It'd be comical if difficult child 1 wasn't so scary. I call for help and the guy comes and sees a completely calm kid and just sits on the couch until husband gets home. Its been very peaceful (relatively) the last week because husband has been home all week to help with cherub. He will be off for one more week. Next week he does go back to school in the evenings. I'd better go. The few times I get on one of husband's computers I use it to pay bills. I miss you guys and will be back as soon as I can get my own computer. Probably in a few months.