I don't know where to start. I figured this was a safe place. I am floored by the extent of parents with the same issues. I haven't been on any forums for over 10 yrs. I am not too sure of how this works. I have seen some of the guidelines after reading thru this site and they are very good. I am near the end of the "blame game" and I believe I have a long way to go dealing with my daughters illness. Do I just start telling our story or only the current situation? I will start with the current situation with in the last week. Please advise on anything else. my daughter is 21. She tried to commit suicide last Fri. I begged her to check into a mental health facility. She stayed in the ER dept. for 2 days. I was called to give "collateral" last Sunday. I told the case worker she absolutely had no business being out. I thought this would keep her there and get her the help she needs for the bipolar disorder she lives with. She was out by Monday. I found out she took a title loan out on her car and was hoping that she would stay in the hospital for mental help so I took her car to a safe place so it wouldn't get towed and figure it out when she got out. She walked from the hospital to the car and won't return. She thought I tricked her by telling the staff she shouldn't be let out. For 2 days I felt relief thinking she was going to be forced to get help. After she got out she drove 250 miles to pick up a "friend" and I could tell by her voice she was in a manic state of a high. She was going to go visit a friend in this city 4 hours away for 3 days and while there drive another 4 hours to sit by the ocean. The next text from her was that she is going to be a flight attendant and show her son (that she has left with his father and my mother) the world. This was at between 8pm and 11pm at night. The next morning at 5am she was driving back to our area.She had no sleep and was driving with a person we don't know. She showed up at my mothers house and she fed her. The last week I have been told be her that she slept at a friends, in her car and at a motel. She has made a string of very bad choices in the last 4 yrs. She has a warrant, now in a situation to get her car towed, she has gone thru 15+ jobs, has a theft addiction, homeless by choice and the family afraid of being robbed, on medications. I don't know the extent of drug and alcohol abuse but, I know there is abuse. Something came to mind when I found her walking on the street last Monday looking for her car. We sat in the car and spoke for 30-45min. She blamed me for not getting her the "right" kind of help. I was not surprised that I was the blamed. I looked at her and told her "my carburetors are messed up in the car and it's your fault since I picked you up. Fix them." she thought I had lost my mind. I looked at her and said "this is the way I feel when you blame me for something totally out of my control." I expressed that the choices she has made and still making are hers. Stop blaming me! I'm exhausted and can't sleep most nights. I just want her to get help.