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<blockquote data-quote="Echolette" data-source="post: 623596" data-attributes="member: 17269"><p>and mwm....ah, but he does use drugs. I think he uses them as a smoke screen...it is much cooler to be a heroin addict than it is to be a "retard", right? He would rather get admitted for an overdose than get fired from a job he can't handle. 'And he does get very stressed about jobs..he is best as something like an offhours dishwasher, no time pressure. I also think it is a way for him to medicate his own anxiety. And last...the people who are drunk stoned tripping or nodding don't look at him funny when he stands too close or talks too loud or uses his hands weirdly...he doesn't feel criticized in that society. But yes, he uses drugs, and he participates in the cycle of selling drugs too..as the phone contact or the look out or any of a variety of things. So there is that as well.</p><p></p><p>That is the framework where we can't have him have access to our homes (my ex's or mine) anymore. Because his Pervasive Developmental Disorder (PDD)/not otherwise specified makes him clueless about who is a friend and who is not, and he trusts EVERYBODY. Because his drug use has opened doors to people way creepier and more manipulative than he can imagine. Because his grandiosity in the midst of a bipolar mania will lead him to empty our house of all our goods and head off to Sacramento where the woman he thinks is his girlfirend but who tells me she absolutely is not lives. Because in a schizoaffective state of paranoia he carried an ax around lower Manhatten and scared tourists. Because he won't take his medications or see a therapist or stay hooked into a caseworker or even sleep in my house for more than a night or two. Because jail seems like a good option to him when it is cold. Because all that.</p><p></p><p>Please do NOT think the frustration in this is at you! I love and appreciate your insight, especially coming through the life and genes and neurobiology you have. I feel like you are a bit of a window to difficult child, and I appreciate your generosity and bravery in offering that to me. The frustration is at me, at difficult child, at the world in which I can't tuck him in and make him safe.</p><p></p><p>Echo</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Echolette, post: 623596, member: 17269"] and mwm....ah, but he does use drugs. I think he uses them as a smoke screen...it is much cooler to be a heroin addict than it is to be a "retard", right? He would rather get admitted for an overdose than get fired from a job he can't handle. 'And he does get very stressed about jobs..he is best as something like an offhours dishwasher, no time pressure. I also think it is a way for him to medicate his own anxiety. And last...the people who are drunk stoned tripping or nodding don't look at him funny when he stands too close or talks too loud or uses his hands weirdly...he doesn't feel criticized in that society. But yes, he uses drugs, and he participates in the cycle of selling drugs too..as the phone contact or the look out or any of a variety of things. So there is that as well. That is the framework where we can't have him have access to our homes (my ex's or mine) anymore. Because his Pervasive Developmental Disorder (PDD)/not otherwise specified makes him clueless about who is a friend and who is not, and he trusts EVERYBODY. Because his drug use has opened doors to people way creepier and more manipulative than he can imagine. Because his grandiosity in the midst of a bipolar mania will lead him to empty our house of all our goods and head off to Sacramento where the woman he thinks is his girlfirend but who tells me she absolutely is not lives. Because in a schizoaffective state of paranoia he carried an ax around lower Manhatten and scared tourists. Because he won't take his medications or see a therapist or stay hooked into a caseworker or even sleep in my house for more than a night or two. Because jail seems like a good option to him when it is cold. Because all that. Please do NOT think the frustration in this is at you! I love and appreciate your insight, especially coming through the life and genes and neurobiology you have. I feel like you are a bit of a window to difficult child, and I appreciate your generosity and bravery in offering that to me. The frustration is at me, at difficult child, at the world in which I can't tuck him in and make him safe. Echo [/QUOTE]
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