I didn't receive child support from difficult child's dad this week. I always get in on Wed. I called and it hasn't been received yet by child support. So, I left a message at his employer and then went to white pages to look for him. There is no longer a listing for him in Georgia. There is, however, a listing for him in Ohio. There didn't used to be. We have an unusual last name and I have looked it up in Ohio before just to see if there were more of us. The listing shows him with his ex-wife and I have a hard time believing it's accurate. She was more afraid of him than I am and she had remarried. But, you never know. But, he wasn't listed in Ohio last time I checked which was a few months ago. I am waiting to hear back from his employer. In the meantime, I am having a major panic attack. Shaking, feel like I can't breathe, on the verge of tears. Not only am I afraid of him, he hasn't attempted to contact difficult child since she was 3. To me, that's a good thing. However, it - understandably - really upsets her. If he decides to contact her, she will jump at it. I don't think she'll be very trusting up front. She just isn't with most people anyway. And there are emotional scars. But, I don't want her to have to deal with it or with him. I'm trying not to borrow trouble until I know more. I had a friend call the number in Ohio and it's been changed with no forwarding number. But I can't figure out why the listing in Georgia is gone and the one in Ohio has shown up. Oh God. Oh God. Oh God.