I apologize for not being back earlier. I am more of a lurker than a poster, but that night I needed to shout out. I was probably premature in doing so, but so filled with anger and hurt and confusion about what I should do, plus I don't have anyone to share something like that with. Our stress has been building for years. I always say the sun doesn't shine on me it just sh*Tourette's Syndrome on me... I don't feel that way always, but a lot lately. difficult child's been a nut after so long doing so well - but that's another thread. It came to a head in a way that is unacceptable. We both know that. I think we have become so unemotional due to dealing with everything that is going on in our lives and not going the way we would hope that we have internalized that so much so that it had to blow. We have really not caught any type of break on any level in the past 7 years. We are starting to talk again. Really talk. This is the man I have been with for 20 years, since we were 18. He is the kindest man in the world and would do anything for anyone, but we do all have our breaking points. I'm not condoning what happened, because we both were at fault. I thank you all for your concern and am sorry to have worried you. On a nice note difficult child turned 8 today. He had a good day. Tomorrow I am taking the day off and we are all going to his favorite amusement park. He is conked now (TG!), but excited for tomorrow. Thank you.