the balancing act we, as mums & dads, we must follow is biting me in the butt! I've had a lot of time to think over the past months - difficult child issues, marriage issues, family issues, etc, etc, etc..... I've become more & more restless to know what is going on with tweedles dee & dum. For years, I've worked to put together a competent team; one who works together & for the most part I can trust to handle any situation. I can trust to keep things going. AND they are doing their jobs. Because they are doing their jobs & because I've been so very ill, I'm totally out of the loop on what is actually going on with kt & wm. Over the last week or so, when I've asked to be filled in on the "antics" of my difficult children - I'm being put off. SWs at day treatment, & on my team as a whole are asking me not to worry about things. This, of course, makes me nervous. I have nothing else to do but not sleep, then nap, & visit doctors. The stuff I do in between to keep myself occupied doesn't stop me from thinking, planning, figuring out what new life skills I may need to learn to get well or to deal with whatever my body is going to do. So my mind churns... I know that I need to focus on getting well - to learn those new skills that I need to cope & function. And while I know it's early in the game - still working out the treatment plan for me, I need to know that the tweedles treatment plans that took years to fine tune, that the team that took years to pull together & get working as a team - are doing just that. And I get - you really needn't worry - focus on getting well. I'm just talking out loud here, trying to get my weary brain to sort out & prioritize. And while all of this goes on, I truly worry for my babies - especially wm, as he is out of the home & I have very little input right now. Thanks for the ear - I hope my rambling hasn't been too confusing.