Went to the bank this morning about difficult child's $400 in ATM withdrawals with a $2 balance. Thankfully, I really am only an authorized user and have no liability for his actions. She said it would go to collections in 1-2 months and after a while, he would be prevented from opening up bank accounts anyway else. This part shocked me - I told her I blocked overdraft online this weekend. She said even if you have blocked it, that there is an option to override that at the ATM. Just sharing in case it helps anyone. Cancelled his cell phone. Goodbye $340 in early termination fees. Two places have called here asking him to come in for interviews. I messaged him in his new FB account. (We aren't friends). He wrote back today. Said he had an interview at one tomorrow. Was doing all he could. Then he expressed his rage at my choices of which clothing to bring him. I wrote back that I knew he was trying hard. Told him I loved him and I was already washing all his dirty things today. If he would message me a list, then I would get it together and meet him. I'm trying to find a peaceful detachment where I can be encouraging yet hold my ground. I don't think he has a phone because it took him a while to read those messages and he is usually constantly on FB on his old phone. Friends are calling, texting, etc. to check on me. I'm being courageous and asking for what I need (new neighbors' cell phones in case of emergency, call me every few days, if I start to isolate call me on it, etc.) Been crying a lot. Journalizing. Reading inspirational things. A part of me is glad he isn't here - he, the bad one. Then I feel guilty. But I realize it isn't my son - the 19 year old whom I adore but who is still a kid and thus, a pain - whom I want gone. It is the selfish, hateful lying addict. thanks for listening. Posting helps.