Hello, my name is Sara. I am a single mother of a twelve year old boy (forgive me, I haven't learned all the shorthand on this site yet). I just joined this site tonight and obviously that must mean something is heavy on my heart. My son has been diagnosed for several years with ADHD, ODD and with a mood disorder. He has been seen by the very best Dr in our state as well as continual weekly counseling sessions. (currently on Depakoat sprinkles and vivoxin )Our problems are getting more and more difficult including continual outbursts, failing grades, physicial temper towards me, complete lack of authority, shouting obscenities at me, and tonight telling me I was a mistake( Something I have NEVER said to him). His Dad and him (we've been divorced for 11 years) have teamed up against me in every way. My son refers to me as "she or her" and often just as Sara. I am continually belittled know matter what i do or how nice I am. I have fallen into such a deep depression feeling like I have failed him because he sees my cry so much. Im feel like I have ruined his childhood by who Ive become. Im always sad and find it difficult to keep an upbeat household. I feel the cycle is so vicious but I just don't know how to fix it anymore. Anyways, sorry to bug ya'll with this. I guess I am looking for some hope in all of this failure. Maybe just a "hey, I feel ya"