This is what I heard from difficult child this morning. I know he has been paranoid because he is always wanting the doors shut. He will not go into my room anymore even to go to the restroom. When I was able to get him to take a shower Sunday night, I had to stay in my room while he was in the bathroom with the door open, and he every few minutes would call out to make sure that I was there. I know his anxiety about school is really high right now, yesterday I had trouble getting him up, but he went to school late. Today, I kept trying to get him up and a few times he murmured that he was tired. I know he is having difficulty going to sleep. Finally, I decided that I would just let him stay home with his sister, I wasn't making any progress. I proceeded to go to leave, and was out the door and down the stairs when he comes running out in shorts and wrapped in a blanket, crying asking me to take him with me. He was afraid. I go back into the house with him and he is clinging to me. He proceeds to tell me that he is afraid the monsters are going to kill him. I sit on the couch with him and ask him what he means. He said the monsters in my room are going to kill him. He started to say "I sometimes hear" and then stopped. I asked him if he was hearing or seeing them, and he denies it (psychiatrist and I have discussed that we are concerned that he won't admit it because he is afraid of going back inpatient). He proceeds to say he doesn't know what to do. Then he starts crying and saying he doesn't want to go back inpatient. I left a message this morning for psychiatrist. I needed to talk to him anyway because I need to know what to do with his depakote dosage - I have not heard since he had his blood tests. I talked to my daughter a little bit ago and she said difficult child came in her room and crashed on her bed and fell back to sleep. Poor guy, I am really worried about him.