So, as most of you know difficult child is still in the psychiatric hospital after his latest episode last week when he told the nurse in the ER that he wanted to kill me and has had a plan in place for sometime. We had court on Friday and the judge agrees that him coming home could produce "catastrophic results". The CMO and DYFS were battling it out over who needs to place him, etc. I got a call from CMO yesterday telling me that they now have him on Youthlink and are looking for residential treatment but that could take some time. They also said that they refuse to place him in a shelter and that they want me to take him home until they find him a placement. I said absolutely not. In my opinion they are trying to get me to take him home and will then drag their feet and say there are no beds available in an Residential Treatment Center (RTC), etc. Then we'll be stuck in the same situation we were in. I just got a call from the psychiatrist saying that difficult child is stable and ready to be released. She said he can either come home to me or she will have to call DYFS and say that I'm refusing to pick him up. I told her to call DYFS. At this point my husband and I are fearful to bring him home. Between his rages and death threats we just can't do it. We don't feel safe. The psychiatrist says she agrees with me 100% but that she can't keep him in the psychiatric hospital anymore since he's stable. She said by law he needs to be released. So now I don't know what will happen. Will I get in trouble with DYFS for abandonment? I love my son and will always be there for him but I can't bring him home and risk our safety as well as his. Does anyone here have any experience with this? I am so upset over this whole situation. My son in a good kid but he has serious problems and is in desperate need of help. I'm so torn up over it and feel like I'm a horrible person yet deep inside I know that it's pretty much now or never for him since everything we've tried at home has failed and he's getting worse and worse. I know he is angry at me and feels that I'm abandoning him but we have no other choice right now.