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Hi family,
Today our family joined my older 2 kiddos and their fiance's and their fiance's families for a 2nd annual trip to a really cool pumpkin patch ran by an awesome family.
Aly was anxious this a.m. before leaving and we toyed with giving her her PRN medication but just brought it along just in case. My easy child 2's fiance's mom is a foster mom for a family of 5 kids ages 17 down to 7. We have known them for several years, they are long term placements. Aly LOVES to play with the 8 yo girl and the 7 yo boy. They are adorable, well mannered kiddos.
This family run farm/pumpkin patch is super safe, kid/family friendly so we tend to give them a little bit more freedom there as long as they keep checking in with us. Usually, with all the adults and older teens there, there is usually one of us at least with them most of the time.
Anyways, as the day progresses and the kids are playing on this huge "mountain" slide thingy, I see Aly standing at the top, looking totally lost and out of it. We called her, she did not respond, my oldest easy child ran up the mountain to her and she had already snapped out of it. Aly acted like nothing had happened and was wondering why easy child was up there.
A while passed and we kept her in our sights at all times. She started being the "demanding" Aly, demanding a sucker, demanding another hot dog, demanding cotton candy, etc...
husband was getting ticked off, none of the other kids where lying on the ground kicking and screaming because they didn't have a stinking sucker!! She screamed at husband that she (Aly) was stupid and "M" (foster child) was smarter than her, why was there something wrong with her brain? Why did we adopt her? Why were we at the pumpkin patch if we were just going to keep telling her "No". She had already had a huge lunch and desert!!
OK, saying she was in a manic state is not putting it anywhere near what it was like.
I started crying, I know, stupid, but I just lost it. Here are 100's of other kids and NONE of them were behaving like Aly was. Yes, I understand, she has ALOT of issues and yes, she started the day out in a bad place. But, man oh man! I thought I was immune to her "outbursts" by now.
easy child 2 and her fiance asked if they could take her and J for a few days to give everyone a break. I gave Aly her PRN medication and agreed. easy child 2 just called and said both girls are sound asleep, so far so good!
So, husband and I are home alone the first time in months and here I sit crying my eyes out thinking of how wonderful this day could have been. I cannot believe I witnessed my 10 yo daughter on the ground like a 2 yo.
I have journaled everything and when we see the new psychiatrist next month I will have ALOT to share with him.
I got a call from her in school therapist who is concerned that Aly may have a personality disorder. I am not sure if that is what it is or if she just gets so out there she can't come back?!?!? And, I know she must have had a seizure when she was up on that slide mountain.
Someone please tell me something that will give me hope. I am feeling so needy again and so lost. She scared the daylights out of me today, husband is not really talking about it. What's new? I can't get him to talk about much of anything.
:crying:
Vickie
Today our family joined my older 2 kiddos and their fiance's and their fiance's families for a 2nd annual trip to a really cool pumpkin patch ran by an awesome family.
Aly was anxious this a.m. before leaving and we toyed with giving her her PRN medication but just brought it along just in case. My easy child 2's fiance's mom is a foster mom for a family of 5 kids ages 17 down to 7. We have known them for several years, they are long term placements. Aly LOVES to play with the 8 yo girl and the 7 yo boy. They are adorable, well mannered kiddos.
This family run farm/pumpkin patch is super safe, kid/family friendly so we tend to give them a little bit more freedom there as long as they keep checking in with us. Usually, with all the adults and older teens there, there is usually one of us at least with them most of the time.
Anyways, as the day progresses and the kids are playing on this huge "mountain" slide thingy, I see Aly standing at the top, looking totally lost and out of it. We called her, she did not respond, my oldest easy child ran up the mountain to her and she had already snapped out of it. Aly acted like nothing had happened and was wondering why easy child was up there.
A while passed and we kept her in our sights at all times. She started being the "demanding" Aly, demanding a sucker, demanding another hot dog, demanding cotton candy, etc...
husband was getting ticked off, none of the other kids where lying on the ground kicking and screaming because they didn't have a stinking sucker!! She screamed at husband that she (Aly) was stupid and "M" (foster child) was smarter than her, why was there something wrong with her brain? Why did we adopt her? Why were we at the pumpkin patch if we were just going to keep telling her "No". She had already had a huge lunch and desert!!
OK, saying she was in a manic state is not putting it anywhere near what it was like.
I started crying, I know, stupid, but I just lost it. Here are 100's of other kids and NONE of them were behaving like Aly was. Yes, I understand, she has ALOT of issues and yes, she started the day out in a bad place. But, man oh man! I thought I was immune to her "outbursts" by now.
easy child 2 and her fiance asked if they could take her and J for a few days to give everyone a break. I gave Aly her PRN medication and agreed. easy child 2 just called and said both girls are sound asleep, so far so good!
So, husband and I are home alone the first time in months and here I sit crying my eyes out thinking of how wonderful this day could have been. I cannot believe I witnessed my 10 yo daughter on the ground like a 2 yo.
I have journaled everything and when we see the new psychiatrist next month I will have ALOT to share with him.
I got a call from her in school therapist who is concerned that Aly may have a personality disorder. I am not sure if that is what it is or if she just gets so out there she can't come back?!?!? And, I know she must have had a seizure when she was up on that slide mountain.
Someone please tell me something that will give me hope. I am feeling so needy again and so lost. She scared the daylights out of me today, husband is not really talking about it. What's new? I can't get him to talk about much of anything.
:crying:
Vickie