Have had a bit of an epiphany (of sorts) over the last 12 hours. Last night was out with my husband listening to live jazz music and felt bits of it breaking through. Then, last night, I did see that our son posted a photo of himself (something he rarely does these days) and I carried that image to sleep with me last night. When I woke up this morning, I had a deeper layer of "seeing" open up inside me. MIND'S EYE (factual) -- Looking at our son's photo (mainly his face), I see his very thin, sneering, contorted face. I see his "meth marks". I see a slice of his ear missing (he lost a knife fight 2 years ago). I see the basic outer layer of this life. HEART'S EYE (emotional) -- I see my emotions and memories surrounding him -- the happy, the sad, the angry, the scared. And I not only see my emotions around him, I see my interpretation of his emotions around him (which may or may not be accurate). I see a deeper layer which "attaches" me to my experience in this life. SOUL'S EYE (spiritual?) -- I see something altogether different. Hard to put this into words. For me, it's more than seeing compassion for a troubled person (that resides in my Heart's Eye). It's deeper than that. It's an interconnectedness (or a web or a vine) which "attaches" me to.....well....everything -- especially that which is greater than myself (Higher Power, The Universal, etc). I cannot clearly define it because I don't clearly know what it is. But I know that it's GOOD. And that's all it needs to be. I believe there are layers of understanding and "seeing" within these layers. Defining (and naming) these layers helps me to see where I'm at with my perceptions of life -- especially troubling events, such as with our son. They all have their place. For me, my Mind's Eye doesn't get me "stuck" in a moment. My Heart's Eye, however, has brought much pain. Much pleasure, also, but this is the place where my pain boldly asserts its perceived "squatters rights" and tends to take up residence. But........ my Soul's Eye is not a place of pain or chaos. It's a place of more than just acceptance, too. It's a place where I see genuine beauty in ALL people and natural things (some man-made things don't inhabit my Soul's Eye -- they're not natural entities -- cement has its positive place, but it'll never be as magnificent to me as a tree). Geez, I know this might sound pretty woo-woo to some. But it's what I experience, so I try to tell it as genuinely as I can. In my awareness (which is, admittedly, not complete), most faiths and philosophies speak of such states of awareness, calling it various things. "Soul's Eye" feels very personal to me, so I use it. It feels cleansing, renewing, accepting, non-judging, purifying, and calming and energizing in the same breath. That's my experience. I have felt this sensation before, in bits and pieces (except for one beautiful experience which had nothing to do with our son)....but not in a while. And, honestly, not in exactly this way. It felt so good, I stayed in bed an extra hour, just soaking it in and trying to "emboss" it permanently to me. So, yes, our son's troubles clearly continue. And they may very likely continue. I cannot imagine the battle he wages inside himself. In my Heart's Eye, that will hurt at times. But this morning, in my Soul's Eye, I have a greater appreciation for who he is, for who I am, and for all which is greater than myself. Which, believe me.........is a whole lot! Thanks for listening. This is not a totally new concept for me, but I'm finding new territory in it and seeing things open up in new ways. And for that, I am very thankful. The Soul's Eye experience is a gift -- I like and appreciate it! Who knows what's right around the bend? New territory on a Soul Trek.......feels a little like Lewis & Clark mapping previously-unseen natural wonders! I deeply value exploring my soul's terrain.....and the terrain of that which is greater than myself. PS ---- I read and re-read so many of your sensitive posts about homelessness. Thank you all for being an inspiration for me. This has been gradually "opening" for me since seeing that homeless man who moved me so a few days ago. So many of you bring such wonderful experiences, insights and feelings to this site. Thank you all for helping me explore new terrain.