I'm 4 days in to a respiratory virus that is literally taking me to my knees. Breathing isn't something I take for granted. Often I'm having to concentrate really hard to accomplish it in between horrendous coughing episodes. There was no "coming down" part of this virus. One moment I was fine, next moment I was so sick I had trouble sitting in a chair. wham! It hit me like a ton of bricks. I've been running a bone chilling type fever....haven't been able to stop coughly long enough to actually take my temp. I've been coughing up awfully nasty stuff from the get go with this bug. I haven't slept more than maybe snatches of 15 mins of dozing here and there in 4 days. And even then I'm not so sure I'm really alseep as the dreams are bizzare. I am pushing fluids.....but it's not doing much. I'm up now because once again I just couldn't fall asleep. I have a half hour before I can take the cough medication. I've no doubt when it or the tylenol wears off. I looked at myself in the bathroom mirror. I had to look again cuz I thought I was hallucinating from lack of sleep. I look like a walking corpse. easy child is on me to go the doctor or er. doctor I can't do. We paid the house payment and no way can scrape up the 100 bucks for the visit, not to mention any medications. ER isn't much better. No we don't have to pay. But we still don't have money for any medications that I'd get..........and honestly, I just don't have the physical strength to brave the cold, snow, the ride over, and 14 hrs of waiting. People it is grueling to make it across the room. If I could just SLEEP dammit I think I could start to throw this off. But even when the tylenol and couch medication is working I just lay there with wild weird thoughts running thru my brain. I think it's taken me more than a half hour to write this post. I'm not even sure if it make sense. I think it's time for the medications again. Maybe this time I'll get lucky and get to sleep . Some good thoughts.....juju.....would be much appreciated.