Hi again, I’m thinking about going to see a psychologist to help me cope with the fear I live with on a daily basis. I live in a perpetual state of hyper vigilance, just waiting for the next crisis to occur. Right now things are okay with Fizz (nickname for my Difficult Child). He’s working, looking (albeit not very hard) for somewhere else to live and mainly abiding by our rules. (Home before midnight on weeknights, seeing his psychologist, no weed in our house, not to be drug affected in our house, going to work every day.) But even though things are mainly okay right now, I know that it will only be a matter of time before something happens. I live in fear of the mail, phone calls and the doorbell. I constantly think that bad news is on its way and this is ruining my life. He had a brush with the law earlier this year and thankfully nothing came of that, but it could have been very serious. I live in fear of the police knocking on my door. I don’t want to live like this. Every other part of my life is great. I have a job I love, good friends, a good marriage and two other kids who are both wonderful human beings. I want to enjoy my life. I try very hard to be grateful for the good things I have happening and to live ‘in the moment’. But no matter how hard I try, the dark cloud of what is happening (or may happen) with Fizz always seems to be hovering overhead. I’m wondering if therapy has helped others to cope with the fear, guilt and shame of having a child like mine? Have any of you managed to move past it and enjoy your lives despite having a difficult child?