Even tho the straterra is gone, difficult child is still throwing a fit at least once a day in which he gets violent. Sometimes there is some level of control to it. Other times, there is not. Today, I had no trouble leaving him at school this morning (about half the time or better he screams bloody murder about being left at school). Today, he seemed happy to be there. Since most of his fits happen during after-school care, I have been picking him up around 3. I was running a little late today, got there around 3:20. His teacher met me at the door, like is getting to be the norm. Today's fit happened between noon and 1:30. His teacher sent him to be alone with another teacher who stays in a room with younger children who nap. He started kicking and throwing his shoes at the napping children. She had to remove him to another room where he screamed at her, hit her, and threw chairs for half an hour. They tell me this every single day and there's not a blessed thing in the universe that I know to do about it, and tonight, I lost it. I said if you keep it up, they'll take you away, and I won't have a choice about it. He started yelling, angry and Jesus for making him this way, and being bad, intermixed with an occassional "what's that black stuff on that rock, mom?" like nothing was wrong....then right back to the hysterics. And now he's crying because he's going to be taken away, and I'm about to cry cause I don't know what else to do with him, or how to even continue forward down this path like this, and now I've done the ultimate bad and lost my temper and said something I shouldn't have. I need help. Serious amounts of help.