I feel like I need to write this down to remind myself of some things because I am being blinded by sadness, missing her, routing for her, and everything else. I need to remind myself of how bad things really got. I am also watching Iyanla Vanzant (love her) and she is trying to get a mothers two grown a** children to move out of the house , so I am a little inspired.
Things I don't miss:
Being talked down to, demeaned, cursed at, yelled at and screamed at.
Walking around on egg shells.
Being afraid.
Being bullied.
Not being able to talk on the phone in my own home because it annoys her, because my voice annoys her.
Her embarrassing me with her loud ass voice and disturbing the neighbors.
Her foul mouth
Being ordered to cook for her when she is hungry and not going by normal dinner times. I am also sick of her demanding what kind of food she wants to eat or there is hell to pay. It's breaking my bank big time.
Tired of her flat out lying and rewriting history about what really happened. Such as, No, I am not responsible for you leaving high school. YOU did that. So much more
The LIES.
The manipulation
The HARASSMENT
Being bothered every time I go out with phone calls.
This one is a BIG one: Coming and going when she pleases. She has done this since 16 years old. Leaves at all hours of the night and comes home at all hours of the night. DONE WITH THAT.
Being blamed for everything.
Her sense of everything that is mine is hers. She constantly tells me everything that I have is NOT mine. That it's the governments, so on and so forth so there for she doesn't need to respect me or my stuff at all.
Not being able to talk to her when I want to talk to her. Only when she's good darn well and ready. That's got to stop today. You don't tell me I can't talk in my own home.
The threats
The police coming
Worrying about the police coming because of her extremely loud voice and constant cursing
Being abused
Being afraid in my home
Being afraid of my own daughter
Being afraid
Things I don't miss:
Being talked down to, demeaned, cursed at, yelled at and screamed at.
Walking around on egg shells.
Being afraid.
Being bullied.
Not being able to talk on the phone in my own home because it annoys her, because my voice annoys her.
Her embarrassing me with her loud ass voice and disturbing the neighbors.
Her foul mouth
Being ordered to cook for her when she is hungry and not going by normal dinner times. I am also sick of her demanding what kind of food she wants to eat or there is hell to pay. It's breaking my bank big time.
Tired of her flat out lying and rewriting history about what really happened. Such as, No, I am not responsible for you leaving high school. YOU did that. So much more
The LIES.
The manipulation
The HARASSMENT
Being bothered every time I go out with phone calls.
This one is a BIG one: Coming and going when she pleases. She has done this since 16 years old. Leaves at all hours of the night and comes home at all hours of the night. DONE WITH THAT.
Being blamed for everything.
Her sense of everything that is mine is hers. She constantly tells me everything that I have is NOT mine. That it's the governments, so on and so forth so there for she doesn't need to respect me or my stuff at all.
Not being able to talk to her when I want to talk to her. Only when she's good darn well and ready. That's got to stop today. You don't tell me I can't talk in my own home.
The threats
The police coming
Worrying about the police coming because of her extremely loud voice and constant cursing
Being abused
Being afraid in my home
Being afraid of my own daughter
Being afraid