I heard someone talking last week about how kids have been deeply wounded by hurtful things their parents have said to them. Well, I said some pretty mean things to difficult child years ago during our worst (pre-diagnosis, pre-medication) days when he was raging and violent. They were said in the moment when he was out of control. I apologized for what I said and asked his forgiveness, both immediately and later, when he brought it up. I have prayed and prayed about it, and asked for God's forgiveness. But I still worry about how things I've said have affected him. Has anyone else dealt with this? How? difficult child, of course, has said horrible things to me through the years -- way meaner and way more often than my few slip-ups. He brushes those off with "I was just angry." OK, I get it. He's the kid. He's the one with the problems. And so I forgive him. Over and over. But will he ever forgive me?