Maybe I am just nuts but I feel so set up. I thought my therapist appointment was this morning but it's a little later today. The mst guy is supposed to call me mid-afternoon to see what I decided about the psychiatric evaluation. I've been reading up about the test he said I'm listed for. It is used for checking criminals and in custody cases and insurance claims. It is not supposed to be used for diagnosis'ing and is supposed to be used in conjunction with an assessment by discussing things with the court-ordered person. However, it looks like that doesn't always happen and it won't happen in this case, based on what mst guy said. Anyway, given the fact that the gal had spoken many times to my half-bro in the past, when he was trying to get custody and putting seeds of doubt in her mind about me, given the fact that she said she was calling dss in as another option to try to get Residential Treatment Center (RTC) but dss cannot place difficult child in Residential Treatment Center (RTC) or foster care, they must place him with a family member when one is available and dss said she would make sure the gal knew that, given that only leaves me working thru county team to get Residential Treatment Center (RTC) and gal has not responded to that (I need her efforts or PO's efforts) so the gal and po are knowingly making it impossible for me to get difficult child into Residential Treatment Center (RTC), and the gal has not returned a single call since court, dss only spoke with me to tell me that she is going to contact my bro this week and run ads in papers as required for difficult child's father, it makes it pretty clear to me that gal wants difficult child placed with my half-bro. Having me take the test was not pursued so we would be given a chance to work thru therapy. If that was the case, 1) these people would be communicating with me and not purssuing my bro until I proved that I would not work thru therapy, 2) they wouldn't be looking to place difficult child in a state that's so far away that it's impossible to work at family therapy with the goal of difficult child returning home, 3) if the gal didn't already have her mind made up, she would have waited to see results of the test or at least wait to see if I refused the test before having dss call my bro. So, why did they order this test, when we all know that they are already aware that I'd been to therapy before and go off and on my whole life? Actually, there were a few people who knew I was already seeing a therapist and I have a feeling that gal already had heard about it from psychiatrist. So why did gal want me to have this test, knowing that it would show something but already pursuing my bro and closing the only opportunity I had to get difficult child into Residential Treatment Center (RTC)? Because the test results showing that I have issues would serve as more evidence that difficult child should be taken from me. If she was looking for the healthiest person to take difficult child, she would have asked for the test to be done on both me and my bro, as is typical when used in custody cases. If she just wanted to make sure that I got into therapy and worked things out with difficult child, she could have asked for that to be ruled and it would have been- there was no need to call in dss for that. The gal knows my bro lives too far away for us to work thru things to have difficult child return home and she knows that my bro would never have reunification as the goal anyway. The psychiatrist had said at a team meeting that difficult child wants to work on a better relationship with me and that he loves me and they could tell that I love difficult child very much. But, since psychiatrist and gal have spoken privately several times, I'm a little paranoid now about who to trust and not trust. No one suggested anything to me about removal of custody prior to this last court, so even if I could have afforded it, I had no idea that an attny for myself might be needed. I can't believe that this is the SAME thing gal did 2 years ago and I had to spend thousands of dollars for a custody case as a result. But last year, the court ended up with the judge and gal asking questions to make sure that I was protecting difficult child from my family. I can't believe this. Do you think for 1 second that if difficult child goes there and pulls a knife on my bro that the result from the authorities will be my bro taking a psychiatric evaluation? They all know that this was not an incident where difficult child and I were arguing or that I was abusing him or anything else that could/would trigger a kid to escalate to that level of anger or impulsive outburst. Does anyone see this adding up any other way? The dss worker who was working on medicaid for Residential Treatment Center (RTC) never even called me back.