thought I had lyme disease but........

Discussion in 'The Watercooler' started by Jena, Aug 14, 2010.

  1. Jena

    Jena New Member

    hey everyone! been busy past few days getting difficult child ready to go to her annual summer week with-dad. It'll be good for her they do fun stuff together, and good for us we need sleep and peace for a little bit.

    Before wedding wasn't feeling very well, joints were swelling, etc. we decided to wait till we got back to look into it. had blood work done they told me it was lyme. so, i went to specialist to get medications because that's what you do! Specialist examines me, gets all my past blood work for past several years and past info from doctors and tells me it isnt' lyme it is lung disease possible lung cancer.

    hmmm so yea i leave very thrown and confused, wasnt' expecting that. was expecting a script!! :)

    Went to gp, who than realizes i havent' had chest xray in two years and begins slightly melting down infront of me. he orders chest xray right away, went today, got it done go back to gp on monday to get results. their rushing it, and doctor isnt' in on weekends.

    they give me a picture of my lungs on a disk to give to future specialists. so yea i'm a freak as we all know and i spend an hour looking at it and self diagnosing comparing to pics of healthy lungs on the internet!! lol.

    anyway had to tell someone that. just one friend and husband know, wont' tell kids till we know what's what even than wont' if i can hide treatment and beat it (worst case scenario).

    lungs do not appear clear in xray as they have previous years. there are circles there is clouding, shadow in one area, etc.

    needless to say i went from smoking a pack three days ago when we got the news to smoking 5 a day. those are the ones when i want to kill a family member and instead light up.

    ah... thanks for letting me vent. monday feels like really far away. keep telling myself it's nothing, dr. was wrong, wait for xrays. i meditated today also. :) haven't in so long was hard to shut the voices off!!!!;)
  2. tiredmommy

    tiredmommy Site Moderator

    I really hope it isn't cancer.... I'll be keeping a good thought and sending out prayers. {{{Hugs}}}.
  3. Jena

    Jena New Member

    thanks, yea me too. that would kinda screw everything up lol. i'm still working on learning how to be a difficult child mom :) never ending lesson.

    doctors' probably wrong, the specialist dont' know him at all first meeting. seemed to have a god complex so we're keeping it real and trying to stay realistic. we both laughed though what luck we finally get married and than this lol. our sick sense of humor keeps us together i think :)
  4. Andy

    Andy Active Member

    Make sure you get a 2nd opinion no matter the outcome -
  5. busywend

    busywend Well-Known Member Staff Member

    Jena, sending out good vibes to you. I really hope it is not cancer. I am sorry you even have to wonder and worry.

    Keep us updated!!! HUGS!!!!
  6. smallworld

    smallworld Moderator

    Jena, I am sending positive thoughts for a good outcome tomorrow and many gentle hugs your way. Please update us when you can.
  7. hearts and roses

    hearts and roses Mind Reader

    Sending hugs and positive thoughts. I am with Andy - no matter what, seek a 2nd opinion!
  8. Jena

    Jena New Member

    hey guys and thanks!!

    So irresponsible of me to smoke when i have children, kinda ****** at myself. this is my 2nd opinion, yet xray's do not lie. so i should have a fairly good idea what;s going on tmrw. i'm hoping i just am sick and my gp didnt' realize it and that's why xray is all messy :)

    i feel cr*ppy, chest is burning, feels like stack of plates is on it. that's how i ususally get when i have pnuemonnia. here's hoping!!!
  9. ML

    ML Guest

    I'm praying for a good report from you in the coming days. I just know you're going to be ok.
  10. Andy

    Andy Active Member

    X-Rays don't lie but those interpertating can misunderstand and misread.
  11. Wiped Out

    Wiped Out Well-Known Member Staff Member

    Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
  12. DammitJanet

    DammitJanet Well-Known Member Staff Member

    So sorry you are having this scare right now. Here is hoping it isnt cancer and is a very treatable lung disease like bronchitis or something.

    As for the smoking...there is a product available by rx called nicotrol that will help you get off the cigs quite well. They are little plastic cartridges which you put little nicotine things in and you inhale on them for a couple of months slowly cutting down until you just quit. Much better than cigs because no smoke and nothing going into lungs.