Today is my son's birthday. I've chosen not to spend it with him. Last week I bought him shoes, lunch and gave him a card; I refuse to change my Saturday plans because he MIGHT show up sometime today. He's ungrateful and uncaring...so hard to imagine I raised him. He said he might move to live with his bio family, that was heartbreaking for me. I can hardly type I'm so upset, but he'll never know it; I won't let him have that control of me. I pray every day that he will grow up. Maybe it will happen...some day.