One year ago, she tried to hang herself.... That is what started the ball rolling and all the secrets came to the surface. Before that, we thought the mood swings and paranoia were caused by the Bi-polar. Didn't know about the huge drug problem she had. We went through the two-week hospitalization, the 48 days inpatient program, the out-patient program... all of which did no good. When difficult child-S's out patient doctor told her that she'd go inpatient again if there was another failed UA, difficult child-S says she will never quit drugs and that is when she ran away. We discovered multiple lies and twisted truths and so many games that she played between so many people. We found the notes she wrote about he need to kill me and run my blood through her fingers or she'd go crazy. It has been a rough year. And the worst part of it is that she isn't getting the help she needs. She's living with EG, not getting any counseling for the drugs or the bipolar, she's taking NO medications what so ever. And she's hanging out with all her old drug buddies. It's so sad to know that she is still on the same road that lead to her suicide attempt, maybe even further down that road. And there isn't a dog-gone thing I can do about it but hope that there are still pieces to put together when everything falls apart. It's so very, very sad. So, again, I will practice my detachment skills. I'm leaving work early to go celebrate a good friends B-day. Lunch, shopping, maybe a stop at the casino to test our luck.... then I'll top off the night by going to the airport to pick up easy child from the airport. It's spring break!!