I spoke with wm on Wednesday evening & then again yesterday to wish him a good holiday. It's so heart breaking to have 2 children who cannot be together safely in one room on a family holiday; or even on their b'days. wm is feeling so hopeless. He told me that he had tried to hurt himself. I'm due to visit with him the first week of December. I asked that he call me or husband when he was feeling this way <span style="color: #FF6666">after</span> he told foster mum or an adult at school. wm agreed to let us know - to check in with us. Emotionally, he's such a little boy; physically he's your typical 13 year old. It's hard to separate - many times you don't want to; you need to encourage wm to catch up emotionally to that 13 year old part of him. That little boy needs his mom; that little boy isn't safe around his mom. It takes 3 other adults plus myself for me to visit with wm. His volatility & lack of impulse control puts me & in turn, himself at risk. I hate that. therapist has been working with wm to recognize the anger he feels toward bio mom isn't warranted toward me. (These are wm's dissociative moments.) Just feeling sad for my boy this morning. I so wanted to be able to climb into the van with kt & husband to go visit with him yesterday. Wasn't to be. Keep wm in your thoughts & prayers.