Star*
call 911........call 911
Thank you everyone - I appreciate the encouraging notes and love.
I did tell the interviewers that I have been told (and whether it's true or not I'm not exactly sure) that I have an innate ability to hone in on peoples issues and then can draw on so many experiences in my life, relate to them, talk to them and give (okay sometimes) unbiased advice. I'll have to admit animal abuse gets under my last raw nerve with no love loss. But like anyone else - I can get rattled. After life with x, Xfamily, X mother in law, and well pretty much my own stupid stunts, and Dude (lets not forget his shenanigans) and whatever life throws at you? Its all been an opportunity. I used to look at it like OMG not me. Now I look at it like - HOly smokes - you think I"m tough enough? Okay...I may need a little help in the patience department, but alright lets rock. Then use it all for experiences to HELP others. THAT's the awesomeness of life to me. I'm not saying I can fully appreciate everything because I'm human - that makes me petty, small minded, selfish, stingy - on a very basic level - and I have to work very hard to overcome all those things EVERY SINGLE DAY. But I try - and I fail - and I try and that to me is progress - not perfection. I'll never be perfect - I'm a work in progress, not a work in perfection.
Sharon - I appreciate your words about the unemployment hearings, and had hoped they'd just be there by phone, but knew once I signed in and saw their signatures it was going to be fun. They had told me when I originally filed for unemployment - and mind you I didn't origninally file - I was looking for a job, trying to log on to the computers and the staff made me file. From there I was told BW would just send in their report which consisted of my statement,and that was it. What a farce. They had sent in NINE pages of testimony. I wasn't allowed to see what they sent, but I believe it worked against their case. too much information and they were not prepared with their own rules. For someone who teaches these rules in orientation ALL THE TIME to people TWICE (as the fact that she drove home trying to prove I was educated to the rules) she didn't know them by heart. I did. I could rattle them off verbatim. When the judge asked me about the second violation I was written up for I didn't know that rule even EXISTED and tha I was even written up for it. I don't remember it being on the form I signed - I remember them telling me my credit card was the violation. My ringing DF up was, and putting the pictures out on the sales floor was - WELL that was another gray area. What I was told/taught and what I did? Didn't seem like a bad thing to me - I was trying to make the company money, keep TWO managers happy - and get a bonus for everyone. HOW is that being a bad person? I was told by the manager in question there were LOOPHOLES. I said that, I meant it and I didn't mean to get her in trouble but on the same side of the token - she MEANT to cause me to get fired. I would imagine yes, that they went back and had a very intense meeting with Ms. I made up the rules for Star as I went to confuse her. The judge asked me WHY didn't I question her on the rules and I said - I never got in trouble with my boss - WHY would I ask my boss if I was in trouble? (thinking in myhead DUH) I just said Well she was my manager, my boss - WHY would she tell me bad rules? I had no reason to doubt her. I said she was also the safety manager. SOooooo (then I shrugged) and I said I'm shrugging. lol.
Insane - I am motivated by money. Sad but true. If you knew what i'd been doing recently to try to stay afloat? You'd know that statement was not a lie. I have a dream long term to be a philanthropist. I want very badly - probably more than anything in the world - to take money - and DO THINGS to help people secretly - so while I didn't tell false - you're right too. I would LOVE to be able to do things like peruse Craigslist and see things ---like yesterday a woman put an ad on there saying I'm 26 in a wheelchair on oxygen and disability -I just moved into a trailer and I need a wheelchair ramp but can't afford it. Can someone help? I'd like to have a group of people working with me that would say - OKAY we have lumber over here, or we have an organization that does ramps - or HEY give Sam $120 dollars and send him to Lowes and get him to build her a ramp and do NOT tell her where we're from - and get the crew pizza, make sure she has food - and a nice van....(HUGE SMILE) and while you're there? Someone take her shoppign for the day and get her a manicure, and take her out for a spa day, and lunch - stuff like that. Make sure her animal was caught up on it's vet bills stuff. OR for people who had kids in the system - that needed gas money to go see them - I'ms ure there are thousands of people that need help - for things that are legitimate and they wouldn't want the moon - just this ONE thing that would help so much. Like a guy who needed tires to get back and forth to work. I want to do things like THAT make a difference with my life. And since I don't have money? I want it - Since I can help ?? I do what I can. If you had any idea how poor in purse we are you'd laugh with us - I'm richer in spirit than any 100 people I know - so the blessing balances out. But it keeps me wanting. Make sense? And money isn't everything - I get that - but BOY there are things I'd sure like to have just to GET to comfortable. lol.
Tia - Tia my love. My monkey shines laughter girl.....If you knew or had ANY idea what that little envelope you send to me every week does for me and my family? OMW!!!! I was thinking of you the other day. I think of you a LOT - but I saw the terra cotta pot - remember the MOthersday flower? I still have the pot and it just makes me smile when I see it. I love that pot. I'm able to do so much with what you send - you have no idea. I lost your list too, but I saw a stoneybrook the other day and I thought - was that one of the ones she wants? Can't remember. Me and Frits - I think Fritz is on vacation. lol. But you have no idea what that envelope means to me - that and DF slaughters your last name EVERY SINGLE time he hands me the envelope - it's become a fun thing for him to do. I don't laugh - it's his little guilty pleasure now. UGH.
RA - I know BW put me in a better place. I told you - I haven't stopped praying for the evil one -snicker. Her guilt woudl be her own if she had any - but now she's going after the store manager. I just shook my head. She learned NOTHING. I'm loosing my home - and she knows it - and still doesn't care or batt an eyelash over the deal. There is something very wrong with someone who has no remorse about how she treats people and is supposedly looking to manage people. Yet - they are STILL catering to her whining, and carrying on. I'm amazed. I asked one of the employees who was telling me - "I think BW would -since theyare SO big on stealing - consider her behavior and antics and waste of company time a COMPANY THEFT. all the people she involves in her scharades, tyrades, and bs. " But the problem is - she wanted the job they gave me, and now she can't do it. So in order to deflect that fact she's making it out to be like everyone is picking on her since I left. OMG - NO ONE has said a word. And why would they PICK on her since I left? She had nothing to do with it? - and they really couldn't care less. Really. She just doesn't have anyone to 'run' with. They all know now she's the company snitch. It wasn't me - like she was telling them......it is HER. So yeah - she painted herself into a corner and doesn't like being alone. Too bad. She has some nice qualities, it's just her bad ones overshadow them all making her not so pleasurable to work with.
I did tell the interviewers that I have been told (and whether it's true or not I'm not exactly sure) that I have an innate ability to hone in on peoples issues and then can draw on so many experiences in my life, relate to them, talk to them and give (okay sometimes) unbiased advice. I'll have to admit animal abuse gets under my last raw nerve with no love loss. But like anyone else - I can get rattled. After life with x, Xfamily, X mother in law, and well pretty much my own stupid stunts, and Dude (lets not forget his shenanigans) and whatever life throws at you? Its all been an opportunity. I used to look at it like OMG not me. Now I look at it like - HOly smokes - you think I"m tough enough? Okay...I may need a little help in the patience department, but alright lets rock. Then use it all for experiences to HELP others. THAT's the awesomeness of life to me. I'm not saying I can fully appreciate everything because I'm human - that makes me petty, small minded, selfish, stingy - on a very basic level - and I have to work very hard to overcome all those things EVERY SINGLE DAY. But I try - and I fail - and I try and that to me is progress - not perfection. I'll never be perfect - I'm a work in progress, not a work in perfection.
Sharon - I appreciate your words about the unemployment hearings, and had hoped they'd just be there by phone, but knew once I signed in and saw their signatures it was going to be fun. They had told me when I originally filed for unemployment - and mind you I didn't origninally file - I was looking for a job, trying to log on to the computers and the staff made me file. From there I was told BW would just send in their report which consisted of my statement,and that was it. What a farce. They had sent in NINE pages of testimony. I wasn't allowed to see what they sent, but I believe it worked against their case. too much information and they were not prepared with their own rules. For someone who teaches these rules in orientation ALL THE TIME to people TWICE (as the fact that she drove home trying to prove I was educated to the rules) she didn't know them by heart. I did. I could rattle them off verbatim. When the judge asked me about the second violation I was written up for I didn't know that rule even EXISTED and tha I was even written up for it. I don't remember it being on the form I signed - I remember them telling me my credit card was the violation. My ringing DF up was, and putting the pictures out on the sales floor was - WELL that was another gray area. What I was told/taught and what I did? Didn't seem like a bad thing to me - I was trying to make the company money, keep TWO managers happy - and get a bonus for everyone. HOW is that being a bad person? I was told by the manager in question there were LOOPHOLES. I said that, I meant it and I didn't mean to get her in trouble but on the same side of the token - she MEANT to cause me to get fired. I would imagine yes, that they went back and had a very intense meeting with Ms. I made up the rules for Star as I went to confuse her. The judge asked me WHY didn't I question her on the rules and I said - I never got in trouble with my boss - WHY would I ask my boss if I was in trouble? (thinking in myhead DUH) I just said Well she was my manager, my boss - WHY would she tell me bad rules? I had no reason to doubt her. I said she was also the safety manager. SOooooo (then I shrugged) and I said I'm shrugging. lol.
Insane - I am motivated by money. Sad but true. If you knew what i'd been doing recently to try to stay afloat? You'd know that statement was not a lie. I have a dream long term to be a philanthropist. I want very badly - probably more than anything in the world - to take money - and DO THINGS to help people secretly - so while I didn't tell false - you're right too. I would LOVE to be able to do things like peruse Craigslist and see things ---like yesterday a woman put an ad on there saying I'm 26 in a wheelchair on oxygen and disability -I just moved into a trailer and I need a wheelchair ramp but can't afford it. Can someone help? I'd like to have a group of people working with me that would say - OKAY we have lumber over here, or we have an organization that does ramps - or HEY give Sam $120 dollars and send him to Lowes and get him to build her a ramp and do NOT tell her where we're from - and get the crew pizza, make sure she has food - and a nice van....(HUGE SMILE) and while you're there? Someone take her shoppign for the day and get her a manicure, and take her out for a spa day, and lunch - stuff like that. Make sure her animal was caught up on it's vet bills stuff. OR for people who had kids in the system - that needed gas money to go see them - I'ms ure there are thousands of people that need help - for things that are legitimate and they wouldn't want the moon - just this ONE thing that would help so much. Like a guy who needed tires to get back and forth to work. I want to do things like THAT make a difference with my life. And since I don't have money? I want it - Since I can help ?? I do what I can. If you had any idea how poor in purse we are you'd laugh with us - I'm richer in spirit than any 100 people I know - so the blessing balances out. But it keeps me wanting. Make sense? And money isn't everything - I get that - but BOY there are things I'd sure like to have just to GET to comfortable. lol.
Tia - Tia my love. My monkey shines laughter girl.....If you knew or had ANY idea what that little envelope you send to me every week does for me and my family? OMW!!!! I was thinking of you the other day. I think of you a LOT - but I saw the terra cotta pot - remember the MOthersday flower? I still have the pot and it just makes me smile when I see it. I love that pot. I'm able to do so much with what you send - you have no idea. I lost your list too, but I saw a stoneybrook the other day and I thought - was that one of the ones she wants? Can't remember. Me and Frits - I think Fritz is on vacation. lol. But you have no idea what that envelope means to me - that and DF slaughters your last name EVERY SINGLE time he hands me the envelope - it's become a fun thing for him to do. I don't laugh - it's his little guilty pleasure now. UGH.
RA - I know BW put me in a better place. I told you - I haven't stopped praying for the evil one -snicker. Her guilt woudl be her own if she had any - but now she's going after the store manager. I just shook my head. She learned NOTHING. I'm loosing my home - and she knows it - and still doesn't care or batt an eyelash over the deal. There is something very wrong with someone who has no remorse about how she treats people and is supposedly looking to manage people. Yet - they are STILL catering to her whining, and carrying on. I'm amazed. I asked one of the employees who was telling me - "I think BW would -since theyare SO big on stealing - consider her behavior and antics and waste of company time a COMPANY THEFT. all the people she involves in her scharades, tyrades, and bs. " But the problem is - she wanted the job they gave me, and now she can't do it. So in order to deflect that fact she's making it out to be like everyone is picking on her since I left. OMG - NO ONE has said a word. And why would they PICK on her since I left? She had nothing to do with it? - and they really couldn't care less. Really. She just doesn't have anyone to 'run' with. They all know now she's the company snitch. It wasn't me - like she was telling them......it is HER. So yeah - she painted herself into a corner and doesn't like being alone. Too bad. She has some nice qualities, it's just her bad ones overshadow them all making her not so pleasurable to work with.