I would definitely meet you if we are close enough. I'm in Texas, DFW area. I can't imagine your fear. I remember times when I locked my bedroom door at night. My son didn't threaten me but I guess I felt uneasy. Yeah, not cool whipping cream. That's jacked up. That's what drugs do to our dear children. It really robs them. I would love to see you out from under this. I think you have taken the first step by finding friends here. It changed and continues to change me. I may have already said this but check out Eckhart Tolle on YouTube. My favorite video is addiction to negative thinking. It has helped me turn off 30 years of negative thinking. Hugs!