On difficult child#1 he had just this past summer been diagnosed with ODD, PTSD & Depression. Well on the advice of one of his workers I took him for another round of full testing, with the same Doctor that I had used in the past and trust. The last time she saw him was 2 years ago. The end of this round of testing was pretty interesting. The first thing that I had noticed was that he is no longer diagnosed with PTSD...hum well ok I was told that it had been more then enough time and he had dealt with his issues so it is no longer a problem. That is the last of the good news. I was expecting that the Depression, not otherwise specified was still there as well and that has been confirmed but the next part is what was really surprising to me there was no ODD listed in its place is Conduct Disorder, mild adolescent onset. I am devastated at this news. Rounds of therapy, in-patient hospitalizations and behavior management at home didn't do as much as I had hoped, I know that it had gotten worse but I didn't realize that it was this much worse! I talked to the Doctor that did the evaluation and she told me of a psychiatric doctor that works primarily with these kinds of kiddos and highly suggested that I seek him out. I have at this point make difficult child#1 an appointment and I myself have meet with him. He really seems to know what he is talking about and I hope he can help. The one bright thing that I was told is that had I not pushed and done everything that I had done difficult child would have been much worse and at the higher end of the scale for CD. difficult child#1 is now 17...this scares the **** out of me because I know that he can't handle the real world. Just yesterday in his IEP meeting he had a fit over the fact that he has to go for math tutoring 2 times a week and that at the meeting his lies had been uncovered. He has been lying to me about his homework and made the excuse of not being organized to explain away the fact that only 2 weeks in to the semester he is missing at least 3 assignments from each class He was very nasty in the meeting and I was embarrassed. I had an idea about some of the assignments that he hadn't been turning in because I can look online and see but some teachers don't update as much as others, so others had been a surprise. Right after the meeting I went and got a new filing cabinet with a lock so I can lock up his laptop, mp3 and video game controllers, I have to lock up difficult child#2's as well because difficult child#1 will use take them from him so he can use them. Is this ever gonna get better? I feel like I am hitting my head on a brick wall. Is there a book someone can suggest on CD? How am I going to be able to send this child out into the world knowing what he is capable of doing?