There are many things going on here of late hard to know where to start. On the positive, kt broke down last week & admitted that she needed help & treatment. She (at least this morning) is going willingly to tour the treatment facility & meet with the therapist tomorrow. kt misses her dad beyond belief. She told me that she feels I'm kicking her out of the house to find her a "new dad". Nothing could be further from the truth. Saying all that, the weekend with kt was wonderful. I took her out shopping for a bit yesterday for undergarments & she followed my guidelines for bra purchases. We sat & sipped smoothies before coming home. The remodel is getting crazy but keeping my mind busy & off many things. The plans are being drawn up again for the 3rd time. The mtg with the contractor last week included his partner (the expert in construction). After that mtg, it was decided that things needed to be changed in the kitchen/utility room part of the remodel. After all is said & done I may be getting French doors & an extension to my deck (they think it will fit into the budget knowing I won't go over that number). If it doesn't work it doesn't work. Keep your fingers crossed ~ it would be so cool. I'm in the process of applying for disability & survivor benefits nonsense. This shouldn't be so difficult. My doctors say I'm disabled (several of them). SS administration has issues with that. Geeez. A mtg this morning at SS admin office. kt & I head down to my dad's this coming Friday. PCA is driving as far as Appleton ~ my sister can meet me there (she's in Fond du Lac area) or if I'm feeling good I may drive the last 2 hours to my dad's house. As I titrate down off the prednisone I have more energy; less confusion. So I may be able to drive that distance with little trouble. I won't take chances though. Finally, kt has asked to visit wm & take him an Easter basket. I'm in the process of seeing if this is okay. Foster mum has no problem however the team may have issues. I'm waiting for a call from Integrated Listening Systems (ILS) team leader to see if wm's worker can be there; kt's worker will come along. The visit will not be any longer than 30 minutes but kt is insistant on seeing her twin & taking him a basket as he can't come to grandpa's with us. I see this as a positive ~ "I'm feeling stronger, mom". And with all of this I'm painting like crazy. My latest is of Ice Orgy flowers. husband found this photo for me to paint & I didn't get to it until after he passed. I painted this one for him & will hang it in my newly remodeled bedroom, next to his fedoras ~ it will be a funky looking wall, however kt cannot continue to believe I'm trying to replace husband after I do this. If you got thru all of this, thanks for listening.