Well, today they upped the lithium (300 in morn, 300 in evening) they are not seeing any side effects, or any effects but it is early. Yesterday night he was ok when I visited, I gave him a list of things to try to work for (halloween, horseback riding, etc.) and he read it intently. sure enough, they said he is really trying hard today...(that was about 11 a.m.) so i waited for their call and they said he has been able to follow enough redirection to say he can go and since he had no aggression to me last night they were fine. Dr said I could keep him out as long as I wanted. We went therapeutic horseback riding and he was a rock star! I offered him dinner and he wanted it but he had his night planned (my routine freak boy) and they have movies most nights on the older kid side...he likes to join them. If he can keep control of his blurting out they let him go over there,. It was strange to me that he wanted to go back but he knew he had to so he is keeping himself calm the way he knows how. I just wanted more for me, but of course I just did what he needed. At Culvers he actually stood by me and put his head on my shoulder. I wanted to grab him and do the embarassing mom hug/kiss thing but I restrained mysel. They are letting him try to earn halloween as a pass. His teacher said if she is free she will let him go trick or treating on horseback! (I will be the one behind with the poop pail, sigh) He doesn't know in case it falls thru but it would be so great. therpeutic HB teacher said it was the best he has been in two weeks. Makes sense. they said last time he was blurting and swearing consantly...(that was day after first outburst when we called 911 but he calmed and I had him stay home) Nice thing was he was smilling and super relaxed on the horse. Those horsies do wonders for him. we have another pass for sunday so he can go again. Here's hoping. Still missing being his mom. I am going to turn off this computer by 11 and force myself to sleep though! Thanks guys.