I haven't went to the specialist yet, but that appointment. is on the fifth of march and frankly I'm scared to death!! I have been really under the weather lately.. I wake up almost every morning with a really bad migrain. I also find myself tired and weak. I hate feeling like this.. My house is a mess and I have no energy to clean it.. Altrhough I am going to today. Just tired of looking at it, plus difficult child will help, if I can pull him away from the cartoons.. (hahaha) I am tring to be strong and keep my head up, but I find myself really depressed all the time. There is so much that could go wrong and it really hard not to think about that. I cry at night so no one can see, I don't want difficult child to see me that way.. He's everything to me and he's been through so much already in his short life. He don't need to worry about mommy too.. Does anyone have any advice to help me coupe with this. I aslo want to say GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU for your support and compassion. I think I would be a mess with it.. So in closing thank all of you from the bottom of my heart!!!!