OMG we haven't had a whole week like this in awhile. I saw difficult child's therapist on Tuesday and we went over when to call 911 (apparently locked in my room, although safe, is another time to call). Saw his doctor on Wed. She got to see/hear the tics/stimms whatever they are. He is out of control with them right now. They are constant. doctor thinks it's a risperdone effect. She went into this was a listed risk on the informed consent you signed (grrrr, I'm not going to sue you, I want him better). ALTHOUGH tics are listed as a side effect, SHE PERSONALLY has not see tics develop from ripserdone in her practice and for sure to have them show up so early in treatment was unusual. We are to wean off risperdal and get ON one that starts with a "Z". It's downstairs or I'd look it up. And if the tics go away, we'll know it's risperdone. If they don't, then we proceed from there. She said a few days to a few weeks for them to go away. That was yesterday Today I see his science teacher at school and she says they were worse today than ever. HOWEVER ....his literacy teacher told me in person today that he personally has NEVER heard these noises I keep talking about while difficult child is in class. Now, today that teacher was the monitor in homework club and he said in homework club they were non-stop. But in literacy class he has NEVER heard those noises (including today). He has blown up at EVERYTHING. And I made a small step forward tonight...I has the phone in hand and had turned it on ready to call...he has a look that he gets...like he could kill you. I kid you not. So he was on his bed and mad at me and put his hands on my shoulders and had "that look" and went to knee me. Had the phone in hand a minute later as he's SCREAMING. Didn't call, but that's the closest I have ever come. Small steps. Last night he raged cuz the cellophane of his frozen dinner (lasagna) stuck to the cheese of the lasagna and WOW did THAT send him over the edge...and then got tomatoe sauce EVERYWHERE while he flung it all over the place SCREAMING at the meal. I took him away, mirrored, reflected, empathsized...finally he calmed down, went back to the table and was fine. But to combine another thread...after his rage and fit after fit after fit tonight (they were one after the other) he fell asleep in his bed before I even got to his room to say goodnight. So yes, fits DO wear my difficult child right out. Oh and back to the tics...I know most of you (if not all) say this is something he can't control..but when he was throwing one of his fits today...he stomped out of the room, folded his arms across his chest, looked right at me and motioned his head towards me and (I swear) made one of those noises right at me. I swear it was like he directed it to me. Weird. So, rages Sun, Mon, Tues, Wed, Thursday...we call this a bad week in my household.