I really need some opinions please. My sister and her friend will be in a neighboring state to me and have invited me to join them for 2 days to go on a safari and kayaking. I really REALLY would love to go and desperately need to get away. With all the crap going on with difficult child and H's construction job on our home, I am feeling incredibly burnt out. The problem is I am afraid to leave difficult child, basically, on her own. And I definitely will not go if she has to join me. I am sick of her face and I do not want to see her on a mini vaca. I know that sounds so mean, but my God. She will be 18 in October and should remember to take her medications every morning and it will only be for 2-3 days but I'm terrified by what I may return to. The last time I went away for 2 measly days she went binge drinking, skipped her medications for 2 days and wound up in the hospital on suicide watch. I do not want a replay of that (that was in June). on the other hand, I suppose at some point I will have to trust her to be on her own for a couple of days. I know there are some of you reading this and thinking, "But won't H be there?" Yes, he will be home, but he's working from sun up to sun down to get our housing addition completed and is very one dimensional. He will kind of oversee what difficult child is up to and have her check in with him, but the man is exhausted and passes out by 9PM. difficult child has an 11PM curfew, but darned if he will be awake to notice, and quite honestly, I don't care if she misses curfew. I just want her sober, you know? And I don't want her having random sex with her newest love interest, who by the way, is the most pukish looking fellow - he looks like he is 12 and he's almost 20! Ugh. I could bring her with me, but then I'd have to deal with her freakin moods and attitude and I won't be able to speak freely with my sister and her friend - I am thinking it will be more fun for 3 adult women than it would be with 3 adult women and a teenager. Know what I mean?? Since June 24th, difficult child has come to work with me daily. She may not come with me, but she will show up in her own car. She sits at a spare computer and goes on line. She just completed a body piercing class on line (lovely) and now she wants to take another. But the point is that this kid is with me all the freakin time and I'm about to go bananas. I love her, but I can't stand to be with her all the time. At first I was thinking it might be fun to do this safari thing together - doing something fun instead of bonding in a counselor's office, you know? But then I felt like the thought of being with her that much might send me over the edge. So, should I just stay home and avoid a disaster? Or, should I go without difficult child and hope for the best? What would you do?