I am just so sad this morning. An e-mail from one of my sisters set me off. It was about coming up to see one of difficult child's soccer games. Well difficult child is off the team. Coach called and said he was going to talk to us this weekend about his behavior at practice--disruptive--etc. but in light of what happened with this other child--he can't have other players frightened to go on the field. He was apologetic and felt really bad-but both husband and I understand. It is just so sad. I am sitting here crying while I type this. I know I have to be strong for my kid--but this really s***s. I feel like I have been battling all my life. First, I grew up in not the most normal family--my mom was a real whip to deal with. I get through that, find a great husband and I managed to be a happy person. Now, I have a kid--and I have all these issues.
I know "poor" me --I know that I should be happy for whatever blessings I have. I am just so tired of the fight--and I feel like I never get anywhere. I look at my friends-5 kids no issues, my sisters-kids nothing like this-- and I wonder "why me?"
I guess it is really hard too cause difficult child had had good years in the 1st-4th grade--a lot of work on his part and ours but good years
I am just so worried about his future
thanks for the venting space
I know "poor" me --I know that I should be happy for whatever blessings I have. I am just so tired of the fight--and I feel like I never get anywhere. I look at my friends-5 kids no issues, my sisters-kids nothing like this-- and I wonder "why me?"
I guess it is really hard too cause difficult child had had good years in the 1st-4th grade--a lot of work on his part and ours but good years
I am just so worried about his future
thanks for the venting space