I have been so under the weather lately. I dont know if its the fibro kicking my butt, Im having a flare with the arthritis, Im sick or what the heck is going on but I cant manage to have any energy to do much of anything. I can get up from bed and within 30 mins I am done for. Today I had a doctors appointment with my family doctor who I adore...I finally got back in to see him after 2 long years and I told him all this and he put me back on my pain medications and muscle relaxers and told me to see if getting the pain under control helps. He only gave me 30 lorcet plus's...the 7.5/500's but he knows me well enough to know that I only take them when Im desperate anyway. I was only taking 30 a month when I last saw him and if this isnt enough this month we will have to increase...I can call him during the month if it isnt enough. If Im not in desperate pain one day I wont take a pill. I also have an appointment with the ortho doctor on thursday to get xrays of my knees and hips done...and probably shots in those lovely, tender areas. I just love needles filled with cortisone! Oh well, if it makes me feel better even for a short time I guess its worth it. I just know they are gonna tell me my joints are toast. My knees are now swelling every time I walk any distance and my hips are grinding. Im afraid I may need to ask about the better walker with the seat in it so I can sit down instead of falling down...or a wheel chair. It probably doesnt help that I have had to become chief taxi driver for the household since August when Billy decided to go back to school basically unannounced. He just informed me of his decision and at first told me that he had a ride to school with a friend. His classes start at 8 am every day and I dont do early mornings well at all since I have horrible insomnia. Now he has no ride so I have to get up to take him every day, go get him every day, and now he has a part time job which means I also have to take him back and forth to work! Add in Corys running to doctors, therapists, court appts...my doctors...ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And husband is of the opinion that since I am home and not working it is my JOB to do this! He doesnt seem to understand that I am home and not working because I was found to be DISABLED!!!! Im not home because I wanted a vacation! Oh and on top of all the running, I also have to do all the cooking, cleaning, and other assorted running of the household. Guess what...it aint happening. I cant do it. Im falling apart fast. I think that is why Im in this flair. I think my body took as much as it could and now is in revolt. Its saying...no more, janet cant do this. She will be bedridden if people dont understand all this. Oh well...something has to give. My body may be what gives. If I end up in a chair maybe the family will figure out that they have damaged me. Its so tough to have both physical and mental problems. Sometimes I dont know if my problems...like fatigue...are the depression or the fibro.