Every day all three dogs greet me at the door with wagging tales and licks, which breaks my heart. I wish it wasn't taking so long for them to get to the top of the list. Their life will be much better there and our rental home will finally be free of the constant marking/pooping/fighting. Every time I see my dogs, I feel like crying because I know that even though they are going to a nice place and that they could even get adopted (maybe adopters who go to that place enjoy challenging dogs)...they still love us and we can't talk to them and they are going to be devastated when we finally leave them at the adoption/sanctuary place. We'll also all be in tears. I have pretty much passed on Christmas presents so that I have enough money saved for their surrender fee when their names come up. My family understands. I cling to my one little dog (avator) who is doing great at two and who we always seperated from the other dogs so that he didn't pick up their bad behavior. Yet I feel guilty that he is staying and the others are leaving. What kind of owner am I? Why were husband and I so inept at raising dogs that they have so many behavior problems? But I know... Psycho foster kid killed our beloved dog when psycho kid was with us. We lived on a farm at the time and were so deeply in grief that we quickly bought three puppies, not thinking about their gender, how to train them, or anything other than trying to stop our grief by overwhelming ourselves with three other dogs. At the time, hub and I were dealing with two very young kids and one drugged up teenager. We were not into dogs and didn't really know how to be good owners. Through the years, as I came to love dogs, I have studied how to train and raise well behaved dogs (and I saw why mine were not). That's good for the little dog (Damian) because we got him two years ago and started training him right away, but that's bad for the older dogs...and because we rent, they can't stay here as the peeing and pooping gets worse and the things the dogs pee on slowly waste away... I don't really need anything from any of you. This is just a vent with much regret on my part. And I'm feeling very sad about the dogs. I will miss them all. Aside from the peeing and pooping, they are wonderful dogs to their pack...very loving. Ok, sob story over!