hi
not venting about difficult child's this time. i'Tourette's Syndrome been long weekend for sure deaing with little one and being sick. today we have 5 of them, lucky me. so he boyfriend made dinner and then fell asleep on chair while i proceeded to do dinner dishes and clean entire kitchen up. am i ****** yup id' say so. def. aggrivated. if i'm well i usually do it. but wow wouldn't it have been thoughtful had he cooked and when he saw me cleaning said honey stop i'll do it your still not totally ok yet. one can only dream?? see this is the stuff that kept me single to be quite honest.
earlier today he said he's upset because iv'e been so nasty to him. that i'm not happy at midnight when he comes home. he owns restaruant so late hours. i siad well i'm sorry if i've been nasty and i'm sure i have been yet midnight is hard to be happy with all this going on. he said well if you wanna sleep and that's how it's going to be fine, but if your oging to wait up for me you gotta be nice to me you attack me everynight over something i'm afriad to come home.
can i be this way sure i can i've already been dealing with little difficult child for hours not sleeping, older one cleaned house been sick yup i'm no good now. so i said well here's the deal unti li get better i'm just not going to wait up for you. i'm tired nd need my sleep he said ok fine. then whie dinner was in oven he gets texts he is the texting man by the way that's how we almost split up in very beginning. he was texting some other woman very early on in our relationshp that he'd known for 18 years plus was only a friend which is true yet he has other feelings which he admitted to and they were flirting via text how do i know i checked his phone because i suspected something and there it was text after text wtih the two of them flirting away.
i almost walked that was mos. ago he apologized and said he'd never do it again how wrong it was how maybe he was just afraid so much so soon with us etc. i said ok it happened two other times after he said he'd ended whatever strange thing occured. so i put it on the line and said that's it i'm done. then all of a sudden all texting ceased his supposed friend contacted me actually to say how sorry she was and that they really were only friends and texting that way was very wrong.
so ever since that happened i'm cautious and on guard. just to give you back up info.
so today we're sitting there some girl in rest. was having issue today's his day off with new mgr. and she text him. to begin with odd to me that a waitress would be texting owner of rest. yet thats how he is with his staff he lends them money has driven boys that work there home has given neighbors jobs, etc. he's way too good to them.
so anyway this girl sent him text he was hesitant to open it up infront ofme until i said wha'Tourette's Syndrome the problem open your phone we were sitting together on couch. he opend it and the text read "ok honey .........blah, blah, blah about whatever situation i guess was going on at store.
i siad honey? she calls you honey? wow that's surprising is that how you deal with your staff or rather is that how you speak to your female waitresses? he said no not at all i made her feel better after situation wtih manager so i gues she called me honey.
so you know what i was a bit ****** to be quite honest. he said your being immature people in the rest. business talk taht way it's not a big deal.
i said i think it's strange that you not only text waitresses that work for you and that they call you honey. i said that's just weird.
so he got so ****** at me for bringing it up 3 times he yelled at me and said enough is enough ever since i did what i did you are on me like a hawk with everything. i said well it's called im watching you, you did what you did you lied and so now your going to be watched for a while until i know i can totally trust you again it takes time.
so anyway that was my aggrivatoin today which was needed. him calling me immature didn't fit at least i don't think so. he said your almost 40 years old listen to you.
i said you are 40 why would you handle yoruself in such an immature manner with a waitress?
ok so i'm better now thanks for letting me vent. ihope its' ok i vented about boyfriend and not about difficult child but had to get it out.
i'm sure you guys will tell me what you think i hope you do actually. i do admit my emotions run crappy at end of night i've had long day. i said you can't expect me to be bouncing off wall at end fo day. he said i just want yout o be nice to me is all.
ugh!!!!
and yes i'm pmsing too. ontop of pnuemonnia
not venting about difficult child's this time. i'Tourette's Syndrome been long weekend for sure deaing with little one and being sick. today we have 5 of them, lucky me. so he boyfriend made dinner and then fell asleep on chair while i proceeded to do dinner dishes and clean entire kitchen up. am i ****** yup id' say so. def. aggrivated. if i'm well i usually do it. but wow wouldn't it have been thoughtful had he cooked and when he saw me cleaning said honey stop i'll do it your still not totally ok yet. one can only dream?? see this is the stuff that kept me single to be quite honest.
earlier today he said he's upset because iv'e been so nasty to him. that i'm not happy at midnight when he comes home. he owns restaruant so late hours. i siad well i'm sorry if i've been nasty and i'm sure i have been yet midnight is hard to be happy with all this going on. he said well if you wanna sleep and that's how it's going to be fine, but if your oging to wait up for me you gotta be nice to me you attack me everynight over something i'm afriad to come home.
can i be this way sure i can i've already been dealing with little difficult child for hours not sleeping, older one cleaned house been sick yup i'm no good now. so i said well here's the deal unti li get better i'm just not going to wait up for you. i'm tired nd need my sleep he said ok fine. then whie dinner was in oven he gets texts he is the texting man by the way that's how we almost split up in very beginning. he was texting some other woman very early on in our relationshp that he'd known for 18 years plus was only a friend which is true yet he has other feelings which he admitted to and they were flirting via text how do i know i checked his phone because i suspected something and there it was text after text wtih the two of them flirting away.
i almost walked that was mos. ago he apologized and said he'd never do it again how wrong it was how maybe he was just afraid so much so soon with us etc. i said ok it happened two other times after he said he'd ended whatever strange thing occured. so i put it on the line and said that's it i'm done. then all of a sudden all texting ceased his supposed friend contacted me actually to say how sorry she was and that they really were only friends and texting that way was very wrong.
so ever since that happened i'm cautious and on guard. just to give you back up info.
so today we're sitting there some girl in rest. was having issue today's his day off with new mgr. and she text him. to begin with odd to me that a waitress would be texting owner of rest. yet thats how he is with his staff he lends them money has driven boys that work there home has given neighbors jobs, etc. he's way too good to them.
so anyway this girl sent him text he was hesitant to open it up infront ofme until i said wha'Tourette's Syndrome the problem open your phone we were sitting together on couch. he opend it and the text read "ok honey .........blah, blah, blah about whatever situation i guess was going on at store.
i siad honey? she calls you honey? wow that's surprising is that how you deal with your staff or rather is that how you speak to your female waitresses? he said no not at all i made her feel better after situation wtih manager so i gues she called me honey.
so you know what i was a bit ****** to be quite honest. he said your being immature people in the rest. business talk taht way it's not a big deal.
i said i think it's strange that you not only text waitresses that work for you and that they call you honey. i said that's just weird.
so he got so ****** at me for bringing it up 3 times he yelled at me and said enough is enough ever since i did what i did you are on me like a hawk with everything. i said well it's called im watching you, you did what you did you lied and so now your going to be watched for a while until i know i can totally trust you again it takes time.
so anyway that was my aggrivatoin today which was needed. him calling me immature didn't fit at least i don't think so. he said your almost 40 years old listen to you.
i said you are 40 why would you handle yoruself in such an immature manner with a waitress?
ok so i'm better now thanks for letting me vent. ihope its' ok i vented about boyfriend and not about difficult child but had to get it out.
i'm sure you guys will tell me what you think i hope you do actually. i do admit my emotions run crappy at end of night i've had long day. i said you can't expect me to be bouncing off wall at end fo day. he said i just want yout o be nice to me is all.
ugh!!!!
and yes i'm pmsing too. ontop of pnuemonnia