I haven't seen my difficult child in 2 weeks, he is in a program he has to "earn" his way out and visits home, through the jjc. Talked to him last night, they only get a 5 min. call. He is the only boy, out of 9, who has not earned a week. yet. He said "it's really hard mom". I imagine even harder with-o your medications, I told him. He said he is going to keep trying. OMG, why is he doing this to himself? DETACH...DETACH, or I'll drive myself crazy with worry. I felt guilty that I did not visit him last week, my husband went. Sometimes I just can't handle it. Therapy session this Thursday, going to be a hard week. He thinks everything will be "back to normal" when he does come home, 5-8 months from now. I moved out and don't think I can move back, (PTSD) but don't know how to tell him this. Maybe I should wait to tell him, but I want him to face reality, my reality - no more abuse. Thanks for being there and listening.