I'm shaken up at the moment. Idiot X just tried to get me by myself again at the drop-off place. Almost seceded. He watches me from the church parking lot that is down the block from the drop-off place. He must have started going to the drop-off place right after he saw me go in the building. It takes 1 min to get their from the church lot. (Yes, I've timed it.) I have to get in and out really fast when dropping difficult child 1 off or he will really freak out. I had just started backing up when X pulled in. I left the other kids in the van waiting for me. If he had gotten in the parking lot (not lit parking lot) before I did I would've had to choose between leaving my kids out there with a murder/rapist while I got the clueless drop-off people to make him leave or to go out there and let him get me by myself. I can't take the other kids there again. Its just to risky. It takes us to long getting in and out of the van for all of us to get out and go in the building when I take difficult child 1 in and then to load everyone back up after we are difficult child 1-less. (Besides difficult child 1 would be screaming by then.) I think I need husband to take the day off of work every Friday I have to take difficult child 1 to the drop-off place. If husband can get off work then husband will take difficult child 1. I'll try to get a neighbor to watch the kids on Sundays and Mondays when I pick difficult child 1 back up. At least I have more control at the pick ups. If he tries to stay late I can just not pull in. Then I can call the drop-off place and make them make him leave. So if I don't get a babysitter every time for pick ups I hope it'll be o.k. Of course if he starts coming back after I get in the building I'll have to re-asses. I would really like to live a drama free life. We had the lawyer meeting. It is fuzzy if we can do anything or not. Lawyer needs to meet with difficult child 1's therapists (and school people if I can get it) before he will know if anything can be done. It all depends on what they are willing to say in court. I'm not hopeful.