Tk and boyo were here this week from their dad's. I had an appointment that boyo had to attend and I also managed to trade five gallons of laundry soap for pictures so I wanted the whole family here. They were much better behaved then usual. Usual being screaming at each other from sun up to sun down. Tk being the aggressor boyo taking his que and being as mean as he could be. No real difficult child behavior. The stuff I have identified in my mind as Autism Spectrum Disorders (ASD) behaviors still there but not riding heard. Textural issues, incredibly literal having to have turns of phrase explained to her. I verified with her that she wants to stay at dad's but wants the reassurance she can come home when she wants to. Hubs had a rough patch two days ago. I don't really know if I'm being unreasonable or not. I just feel alone. One of the things about schizophrenia is looking out for isolating behavior . He's been falling asleep on the couch a lot lately and I wasn't exactly nice about it. It escalated from sleeping on the couch to everything me ending the night feeling like I just want to leave. He has also made a friend in his unit that we spent the 4th with and I think that's great but (and isn't there always one) he's played merry hell with my plans all week long, he decides he's going to go fishing, wanting to go over play Xbox no warning. When he goes fishing with this guy he's been going to bed at 8pm and going fishing at 4am till about 11am effectively taking one off day out of two for the last month. I didn't really have an issue with any of it till this weekend when he went fishing on the 4th came home and said we were going to eat with people I had never met before. Then on the 5th in the middle of the day said he was gonna go over there even though we had plans. He ended up not going because I had a fit. I guess what I'm upset about is feeling alone, not feeling loved, feeling like his parent I already have to remind set alarms and nag about everything he has to do, him running off to play boy games just really touching off the whole feeling like his parent. We aren't having adult relations very often which is really different for us and half the time when we have them I end up feeling used. Still no word from the army about what our time line looks like. We finally got some bills caught up but there was no money to put away. The 1500 letter veteran bonus from his home state says we are missing documentation which is another thing I can't do for him he has to call them and find out what's going on which will be another battle of wills. Truck still hasn't sold. He's been talking about taking it with us to Oklahoma to sell there. We can not afford The gas to get that beast from point a to point b. For the most part it hasn't been all bad I mean we are living. I'm glad I got to see the kids I was really missing them. It seems like john's anxiety gets worse when they are here but he tries and mostly succeeds in connecting with them and doing fun things. I've felt like hell for most of the past week but I'm kicking.